Saturday, December 26, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Just simply went to check friendster out. It was random,just didnt have anything to do and i felt bored. So i went to friendster,saw a private msg. It was by this GAY FAGGOT. BLOODY HELL SICKO ASKING TO TRY SUCK MY DICK AND MAKE ME FEEL SHIOK TILL I CUM. WTF. Wanna gay,fucking go elsewhere and gay. BLOODY HELL. FUCK OFF GAY SHIT. WHATS WITH THIS FUCKING WORLD NOW,MORE AND MORE GUYS TURNING TO SICKOS AND GAYS. WHATS NEXT. FUCK OFF MAN.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Lord,i believe and have faith in You but i know I'm lazy to worship and pray to You. I'm now here talking to You though. I've lost all confidence. All i face now are problems and more problems. Everywhere i go, i would face problems.. I'm a failure,retard and stupid. I can't do anything right. I can't get the commitment to study really hard to do well for my N levels. All i do is play games,go out,spend money,waste money. I'm just like a pest in the society. Even though i wanna go work,i become lazy.
What else can i do? I may be humble,but i have low self-esteem. Cause whatever i do,i seem to be in the wrong. Because of that,I've just simply lost all my confidence in everything i wanna do. I know I'm in the wrong sometimes cause i didn't think before i act. Currently I'm trying to change, and it takes time. And i will definitely change some day, some time. Sorry for everything I've done. I beg for forgiveness.
This might sound damn emotional for a guy like me, but every guy has his lowest points in life and i don't know if this can be considered as my lowest point of time right now. All i need now is someone who would listen to me,believe in me,understanding me and what I'm going through and give me the confidence i need. I failed as a boyfriend too. I cant understand my girlfriend,i failed to give her happiness,i've always made her cry because of me. I've tried everything but i cant make her feel happy like her usual self before she knew me. I failed to give her the things she wants or needs. Even financially, i failed to provide for her. I tried to take care of her,but ended up having her in tears of sorrow and hurt. People might think from the outside we look like and seem like a happy couple,but actually on the inside things are the total opposite. I failed to be a good boyfriend,i failed to be a good son,i failed to be a good person.
Though i still play computer games with friends and even without people giving me confidence and support and believing in me and trusting in me and listening to me,I'm still going to change and improve myself for the better. And I'm gonna strive to go the correct path and not go the wrong path anymore. Im not saying anyone has affected me,im just saying i was too indecisive and kept making the wrong decisions for myself. Life have been tough for me,real tough till now.
What else can i do? I may be humble,but i have low self-esteem. Cause whatever i do,i seem to be in the wrong. Because of that,I've just simply lost all my confidence in everything i wanna do. I know I'm in the wrong sometimes cause i didn't think before i act. Currently I'm trying to change, and it takes time. And i will definitely change some day, some time. Sorry for everything I've done. I beg for forgiveness.
This might sound damn emotional for a guy like me, but every guy has his lowest points in life and i don't know if this can be considered as my lowest point of time right now. All i need now is someone who would listen to me,believe in me,understanding me and what I'm going through and give me the confidence i need. I failed as a boyfriend too. I cant understand my girlfriend,i failed to give her happiness,i've always made her cry because of me. I've tried everything but i cant make her feel happy like her usual self before she knew me. I failed to give her the things she wants or needs. Even financially, i failed to provide for her. I tried to take care of her,but ended up having her in tears of sorrow and hurt. People might think from the outside we look like and seem like a happy couple,but actually on the inside things are the total opposite. I failed to be a good boyfriend,i failed to be a good son,i failed to be a good person.
Though i still play computer games with friends and even without people giving me confidence and support and believing in me and trusting in me and listening to me,I'm still going to change and improve myself for the better. And I'm gonna strive to go the correct path and not go the wrong path anymore. Im not saying anyone has affected me,im just saying i was too indecisive and kept making the wrong decisions for myself. Life have been tough for me,real tough till now.
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